Hillary Chybinski: deep thoughts. . .

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

deep thoughts. . .

are any of you old enough to remember that skit on SNL?

well here is one of mine:

I used to have a life...

I'm sure that sounds harsher than I mean for it to...but it's the best way I can come up with to explain it.

I'm in a transition period I guess ... like so many of life's transition periods-this one is awkward and uncomfortable - there are good days and bad days - times when I feel like I'm really getting it & times when I feel like I'm drowning.

I remember feeling like this after my first child was born - out of sorts with the new me - uncomfortable in my skin and mourning the way life used to be...not unhappy-just transitioning-trying to define who & what this new "mother" person was.

Now this mother person that I had worked so hard to define and establish has to transition again - to a Stay At Home/Work At Home mom.  It seems so easy - and I mistakenly thought I could shimmy right into it like a favorite LBD.

But as with any transition there are bumps and set-backs and moments of brilliant clarity. There are good times and dark times. And sometimes I mourn the way life used to be. I love being a wife and mother - I don't love pulling weeds or mopping floors. I'm both excited to "be there" for my kids and terrified of what it's doing to our finances.

But the transition will continue and I will settle into the new skin...knowing that the comfort, satisfaction and security are only temporary until the next big transition.

How do you handle transition?

catch you soon -

1 comment:

  1. Awe. Wow. I know we totally have had this conversation before. It is VERY hard to deal with transitions for me. Obviously... 3 years later and I'm just NOW getting confortable in my own skin. =)
    With that being said-apply for that NBC job!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol